At times some of the girls sensed it vaguely.  But for Holly, the mixture of feelings was always there, sometimes clear and intense, other times beneath the surface.  Working at Brady's made her feel more like a woman and less like a woman than anything she had ever experienced.  And these conflicting emotions were often simultaneous, causeing her to both question and accept the identity of "Brady Girl."
    Brady's bar was a man's world and being part of it brought an excitement all its own.  You dressed for the men, served drinks to the men, laughed at jokes told by men, got tips and compliments from men, ran errands for men.  Men called you sweetie and honey and sexy.  Men asked you out, and men made passes . . . And as you left after work, Mark or another bartender would give you a loving pat--and tell you how much you were appreciated.  It was a good feeling to be needed.